So in this section, I'll be talking about depression and I know talking about this can be hard for many people that go through this. Depression isn't easy for anyone it can make or break many people. Living with depression can be very hard to do because it can really destroy people in many ways and a lot of people don’t know what's going on when it hits you. So let's talk about it today so we can all understand depression a little bit more.
When you are experiencing depression there are many symptoms that you can go through and before we go any further let's chat about how you might be feeling when it comes to depression. And a little but on why you might be feeling this way.
How you may be feeling
- You may be feeling down, upset, or really emotional and wanting to cry
- You might feel restless, agitated or irritable
- You may be feeling guilty, worthless, and down on yourself
- You might feel empty or numb
- You might feel isolated and unable to relate to other people
- You might feel that you can't find any pleasure in life or things that you normally enjoy doing.
- You might feel a sense of unreality
- You might feel no self-confidence or self-esteem
- You may be feeling hopeless and despair
- You may be having suicidal thoughts
Ok so the feelings that you may feel can be really hard to deal with you have all these feeling going through your head and you aren't really sure why this is going on. It could be one minute you could feel like you have everything worked out and then the next minute you feel like you hit rock bottom and you just don’t know what happened. You try to get yourself to feel better and you feel like you have done everything but nothing seems to work out. So because of this you now feel really down on yourself and you feel worthless because it almost feels like you can't do anything right. And because of these feelings in your head, now your so down and stressed that now you feel numb and you are now so down on yourself that your self-confidence is now gone and you also have no self-esteem. And these feelings are getting worse and worse to the point where you feel so hopeless that you now have no idea what to do. You want to talk to your friends and family but you feel guilty if you do.
Oh man, I fully get it ha... I live with this all the time I try so hard to put a smile on my face and try and be happy and be the go lucky Tasha everyone sees me to be. But it's so very hard to be myself sometimes I could have so many good things happening in my life and trust me I do. I have my beautiful son in my life that I care about so much he is the light in my world he is my sunshine to my heart. I also have a wonderful boyfriend in my life as well that I care about and love so much and really truly I am so scared to lose every day because of my mental health. Why you might ask and it's because I know having someone with mental health problems can be so very hard to deal with at times we mean well but our moods get the best of us and I always worry that it might be too much one day. I know he isn't like that but it's always in the back of my mind. I also have these 2 great loving best friends of mine that I have known for about 15-16 years they are my family we might get on each other's nerves and it can be hard sometimes but we work through it. And also each of us works with a mental health problem as well so things can be rough but we love each other and that’s all that really matters in the end. And I also have a roof over my head because of a very kind friend that I live with him and his family and for some time I thought things were going great. My health was getting better and I was saving more and more money every day to go and get my own place for me and my son. And I thought you know what I am on housing I have a lot of money saved for me and my son I'll be able to move soon and everything is going to be ok.
Well I felt like that for some time and then the month of May kicked in and I was happy go, lucky girl and then a week went by and I could feel my mood slowly change and at first I tried to brush it off and think nope it's just a bit of stress nothing to be worried about we all get stressed it will go away just give it time. And more and more time went by and more and more the mood got worse and worse and now I am crying at a drop of a hat * and for me I never ever do that I hate crying it makes me feel very open and weak and we will talk about that another time* I'm now eating less and less and well my sleeping sucked before now it's just to the point when I do get sleep I never feel rested. I am also struggling with wanting to do anything at all getting out of bed for me is so hard I have to almost coach myself to get out of bed and also then try and avoid the bed altogether after I get out because if I don’t and I sit on my bed well I'm not leaving it after that most likely it's game over. So then lately I have been trying to think about why I feel this way because I have always learned that there is always a reason to how you are feeling at all times. Sometimes we like to sit there and say we don’t know why we feel this why we just do but if you look deep down inside the answer is there and if we find that answer we will be able to work it out it's not going to be easy tho.
So I have found out why I have been down there is a lot going on in my life and it's starting to get harder and harder for me because I am doing so much on my own. I am looking for a home that is for me and my son and I can't do that because everything I look at is so expensive I can't do it on my own. So I am waiting for housing and well that is taking a long time as well because I want to stay in my own hometown where I feel safe. So because of that, it is taking longer than it really should, I am also trying to save up so I can get everything for the new home for me and my son because I have nothing right now for my family. So because of this, I feel like a worthless mother. Mind you I know I am not I know I am a good mother I do everything I can for my son and I make sure he is raised right. But our mind is a powerful thing where it will make you feel things that you know isn't true and you fight it so much where you are so tired of fighting you end up giving in to those thoughts and it's so hard to get out of once you in.
Now with all of these thoughts in your head, it can really stress you out and you try your hardest to fight it or get help. But you might feel like nothing is working so you feel more upset that you might feel that you have failed in life. And this isn't true when it come to any mental health problem it takes a long time to get it under control. Some people can do it themselves and others might have to go and talk to someone about how they are feeling or you might have to be on medication. And all of these methods are wonderful for any help you need. Everyone has their own way of dealing and also some things even doing something that normally works might not always work when we need the help. And that is normal to sometimes we just need to change things up a bit and it can be hard to do as well. Because you might not like change and that might stress you out a bit or upset you and that’s ok too you will learn to do things at your own pace. As long as you work on how you help yourself as much as you can some things will get easier and some things won't.
And I know we all hate hearing things will get better cheer up or don’t be so down but it's not always that easy and I understand but we can talk about that another time. Just remember things might be hard right now and it's hard to be able to do things. Hell it's hard for me to even do this blog lol I don’t know if I am helping anyone or I even making any sense but it keeps me busy when even I feel down and useless it makes me feel like I am doing something. But even tho it's hard to be able to do things you do have your good days try and go out with your friends and have a good time. Or do something just for you to make you happy. Things might feel or seem bad at the time but you can let it always control your life or who you are. When it comes to anyone that is dealing with any kind of mental health you are a warrior, and a fighter you battle this all the time you are strong just remember that and try and work through some of you are going though even if it's just one thing even things that seem small they also matter. Try and help yourself one step at a time.
If you have anything you would like to add or maybe you would like to say how you might be feeling leave a comment below. I would love to hear from all of you let's chat!
We will be strong together and we won't give up!
So in this section, I'll be talking about depression and I know talking about this can be hard for many people that go through this. Depression isn't easy for anyone it can make or break many people. Living with depression can be very hard to do because it can really destroy people in many ways and a lot of people don’t know what's going on when it hits you. So let's talk about it today so we can all understand depression a little bit more.
When you are experiencing depression there are many symptoms that you can go through and before we go any further let's chat about how you might be feeling when it comes to depression. And a little but on why you might be feeling this way.
How you may be feeling
- You may be feeling down, upset, or really emotional and wanting to cry
- You might feel restless, agitated or irritable
- You may be feeling guilty, worthless, and down on yourself
- You might feel empty or numb
- You might feel isolated and unable to relate to other people
- You might feel that you can't find any pleasure in life or things that you normally enjoy doing.
- You might feel a sense of unreality
- You might feel no self-confidence or self-esteem
- You may be feeling hopeless and despair
- You may be having suicidal thoughts
Ok so the feelings that you may feel can be really hard to deal with you have all these feeling going through your head and you aren't really sure why this is going on. It could be one minute you could feel like you have everything worked out and then the next minute you feel like you hit rock bottom and you just don’t know what happened. You try to get yourself to feel better and you feel like you have done everything but nothing seems to work out. So because of this you now feel really down on yourself and you feel worthless because it almost feels like you can't do anything right. And because of these feelings in your head, now your so down and stressed that now you feel numb and you are now so down on yourself that your self-confidence is now gone and you also have no self-esteem. And these feelings are getting worse and worse to the point where you feel so hopeless that you now have no idea what to do. You want to talk to your friends and family but you feel guilty if you do.
Oh man, I fully get it ha... I live with this all the time I try so hard to put a smile on my face and try and be happy and be the go lucky Tasha everyone sees me to be. But it's so very hard to be myself sometimes I could have so many good things happening in my life and trust me I do. I have my beautiful son in my life that I care about so much he is the light in my world he is my sunshine to my heart. I also have a wonderful boyfriend in my life as well that I care about and love so much and really truly I am so scared to lose every day because of my mental health. Why you might ask and it's because I know having someone with mental health problems can be so very hard to deal with at times we mean well but our moods get the best of us and I always worry that it might be too much one day. I know he isn't like that but it's always in the back of my mind. I also have these 2 great loving best friends of mine that I have known for about 15-16 years they are my family we might get on each other's nerves and it can be hard sometimes but we work through it. And also each of us works with a mental health problem as well so things can be rough but we love each other and that’s all that really matters in the end. And I also have a roof over my head because of a very kind friend that I live with him and his family and for some time I thought things were going great. My health was getting better and I was saving more and more money every day to go and get my own place for me and my son. And I thought you know what I am on housing I have a lot of money saved for me and my son I'll be able to move soon and everything is going to be ok.
Well I felt like that for some time and then the month of May kicked in and I was happy go, lucky girl and then a week went by and I could feel my mood slowly change and at first I tried to brush it off and think nope it's just a bit of stress nothing to be worried about we all get stressed it will go away just give it time. And more and more time went by and more and more the mood got worse and worse and now I am crying at a drop of a hat * and for me I never ever do that I hate crying it makes me feel very open and weak and we will talk about that another time* I'm now eating less and less and well my sleeping sucked before now it's just to the point when I do get sleep I never feel rested. I am also struggling with wanting to do anything at all getting out of bed for me is so hard I have to almost coach myself to get out of bed and also then try and avoid the bed altogether after I get out because if I don’t and I sit on my bed well I'm not leaving it after that most likely it's game over. So then lately I have been trying to think about why I feel this way because I have always learned that there is always a reason to how you are feeling at all times. Sometimes we like to sit there and say we don’t know why we feel this why we just do but if you look deep down inside the answer is there and if we find that answer we will be able to work it out it's not going to be easy tho.
So I have found out why I have been down there is a lot going on in my life and it's starting to get harder and harder for me because I am doing so much on my own. I am looking for a home that is for me and my son and I can't do that because everything I look at is so expensive I can't do it on my own. So I am waiting for housing and well that is taking a long time as well because I want to stay in my own hometown where I feel safe. So because of that, it is taking longer than it really should, I am also trying to save up so I can get everything for the new home for me and my son because I have nothing right now for my family. So because of this, I feel like a worthless mother. Mind you I know I am not I know I am a good mother I do everything I can for my son and I make sure he is raised right. But our mind is a powerful thing where it will make you feel things that you know isn't true and you fight it so much where you are so tired of fighting you end up giving in to those thoughts and it's so hard to get out of once you in.
Now with all of these thoughts in your head, it can really stress you out and you try your hardest to fight it or get help. But you might feel like nothing is working so you feel more upset that you might feel that you have failed in life. And this isn't true when it come to any mental health problem it takes a long time to get it under control. Some people can do it themselves and others might have to go and talk to someone about how they are feeling or you might have to be on medication. And all of these methods are wonderful for any help you need. Everyone has their own way of dealing and also some things even doing something that normally works might not always work when we need the help. And that is normal to sometimes we just need to change things up a bit and it can be hard to do as well. Because you might not like change and that might stress you out a bit or upset you and that’s ok too you will learn to do things at your own pace. As long as you work on how you help yourself as much as you can some things will get easier and some things won't.
And I know we all hate hearing things will get better cheer up or don’t be so down but it's not always that easy and I understand but we can talk about that another time. Just remember things might be hard right now and it's hard to be able to do things. Hell it's hard for me to even do this blog lol I don’t know if I am helping anyone or I even making any sense but it keeps me busy when even I feel down and useless it makes me feel like I am doing something. But even tho it's hard to be able to do things you do have your good days try and go out with your friends and have a good time. Or do something just for you to make you happy. Things might feel or seem bad at the time but you can let it always control your life or who you are. When it comes to anyone that is dealing with any kind of mental health you are a warrior, and a fighter you battle this all the time you are strong just remember that and try and work through some of you are going though even if it's just one thing even things that seem small they also matter. Try and help yourself one step at a time.
If you have anything you would like to add or maybe you would like to say how you might be feeling leave a comment below. I would love to hear from all of you let's chat!
We will be strong together and we won't give up!
